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Thailand [Jul. 13th, 2007:05:57 pm]
[+ |Chiangmai, Thailand]
[+ |gratefulgrateful]

Long time no entry! Well to update, I'm in THAILAND. I found a cheap internet cafe here in Chiangmai (15 Baht/hr, which is like 50 cents). Today was so cool - we got to ride on elephants!!! Then we went on a bamboo raft down the coffee-colored river, and then visited some tribes. We got to be with the long-neck tribe, which are the ones who have the gold rings around their necks! I got some good pics - National Geographic, here I come. We went to the market last night, which is CRAZY! There are like thousands of people around you who don't speak English trying to offer you their products. The bargaining is fun, and I'm getting good at it, but it's so crowded I am always holding my friend's hand!! Yesterday we went to a jewelry factory and I remembered why I need a sugardaddie...

 I'll share pics when I get back to Jax.

Well, tomorrow we catch a flight back to Bangkok, and we have the day free, so Dudley and Allie and I are probably going to get Thai massages or something ($9/hr), or maybe visit some more Temples. Last time, we got blessed by a monk; it was amazing.

I miss you all!

link[7 Ships in a Bottle:Set Sail]

Finals are over! [May. 2nd, 2007:01:51 am]
[+ |Our room.]

I'm officially a college junior!!! Yay!!

Anyway, I'm so damn hungry but it's like 2am, and I don't want to drive to Wal-Mart, but I know I should. I went for a nice run today, and then I found out the pool was closed until Monday, and I murdered administration. 30k a year and NO POOL FOR A WEEK??? hehe.

I want to transfer to a state school to save money.

ION, I had my b-day last week. I had to work, but it was okay because my coworkers threw me a party and some of my patients even got me things. I love my job.

OK now I need to clean up. XOXO
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Miss meh? [Apr. 25th, 2007:05:11 am]
[+ |JU]
[+ |awakeawake]
[+ |Jason sleeping XP]

I should be studying... or sleeping. I have an exam at noon. Microbiology prof, I plan to srsly disappoint. Anyway, it has been a while. Quick update: My job still kicks ass, Jason is still with me, our kitty is good (hmm... pics?), and the semester is coming to an end. That's good, because I need a break, and also because I'm going to Thailand this summer to study. Yay!

I found some pictures from March, but some of them are NSFW so they are behind a cut.

Ok so I overused the b/w option. Anyway, I have more pics from NYC and Xmas, but right now I need to STUDDEHHH.
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Same shit, sorry... [Dec. 28th, 2006:09:25 pm]
[+ |Rochester, NY]
[+ |aggravatedaggravated]
[+ |Sarah McLachlan]

It's been a while...

Well, I'm in NY for Christmas. I do miss my family sometimes, but I'd really just like to be back home. I tried finding a ticket back to Jacksonville earlier, but it's too expensive, and I just have to wait until Sunday. I've been gone for four days so far, and I miss Jason and Monet (my cat). I saw my therapist yesterday. When I walked into her office she said I'm thinner than she has ever seen me, and she wants me to go to a residential treatment center. I said there's no way I could go now. I feel healthy, and I look healthy, and I definitely don't look my weight. My BMI is between 15.4-15.8, but I look more like 19-20.

But nobody is going to believe that anyway, because it's just "the eating disorder talking." I don't get a voice anymore.

I just want to go home. I'm tired of people telling me "You're too thin, you look sick." I'm sick of it. Quit lying to me.
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(no subject) [Aug. 10th, 2006:03:34 am]
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(no subject) [Jun. 13th, 2006:03:55 am]
thank God- i'm up to somewhere between 105-110.

i'm not digging myself deeper. i'm dragging myself out : )

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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2006:09:20 pm]
[+ |disappointeddisappointed]

crazy day today.

i was so sure this week i had gained up to 118. SO sure.

i went to my therapist's, and i was 108.6. 3lbs above my low weight.

HOW DID THIS HAPPEN???? i shouold be happy, but i just started bawling. it was awful. i've just realized how much i have isolated myself, how sick i am getting, how much this is all my fault.

i am so selfish.
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(no subject) [Apr. 26th, 2006:01:11 am]
[+ |blahblah]
[+ |Mraz]

I'm 18.

In the past year, i have gotten NOWHERE. It's the truth.

I recovered from cutting and depression and suicide attempts just before I turned 17... which means that for an entire year, i have made no progress. It's very sad. I sort of wish I would have died. I know that is totally depressing, but so is looking back over this year.

I still have so much to fix.

love, little Drea
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(no subject) [Apr. 21st, 2006:11:06 am]
For the lovely jealousmuch:

1. I've gotta ask it...Rent. Live stage show vs. movie. Discuss. Movie, because I have never seen it on stage! :-)
2. What's the best thing to do on a day you've decided to play hookie?
Work out, of course!
2b. Why does the word "hookie" look so utterly ridiculous?
Because you spelled it wrong, silly! H-O-O-K-E-Y
3. Imagine yourself as "perfect" - what do you see? Who are you?
I am a very thin doctor, married, about 26 years old, living in a nice place in Sonoma CA with horses.
4. Why do you love Carrie more than the other girls? (gosh I'm so lame. lol)
Actually, I like Charlotte the best. She is so pretty and perfect and successful.
5. What has been your lowest low?
My lowest low involved suicide attempts, cutting, and bulimia. I hate alluding to it.
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(no subject) [Apr. 15th, 2006:10:12 pm]
[+ |chipperchipper]

Do you ever feel like you could just wave your hand in front of someone's face and they would still have no idea you were there? Am I a freak for loving it?

47 absences this year so far. hehehehe.

i love me.
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(no subject) [Apr. 2nd, 2006:04:17 pm]
[+ |ecstaticecstatic]

I just bought the Rent soundtrack. I just experienced multiple orgasm.
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Story of the week [Mar. 13th, 2006:08:48 pm]
[+ |confusedWTF?]

So I'm in the living room watching TV, and my dad walks in. He starts picking up and throws a box of tissues at me (jokingly). Then I throw them back at him (jokingly) and he laughs. Five minutes later, he walks back in the living room and sees the tissues on the floor, and starts bitching at me for putting them on the floor. I'm like, "Dad, I threw them at you and you LAUGHED and they haven't moved since." and he just says, "If you mess with me I will mess with you" and at this point his face is purple and he is screaming with rage.

What the fuck??? Is he senile?
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One hundred and six days until Graduation. [Mar. 9th, 2006:05:09 pm]
[+ |lonelylonely]
[+ |Mozart]

My dad is pissing me off like crazy. He is always making me do these retarded things, and if I don't do them, he threatens to not pay for my college. First of all, he is LEGALLY OBLIGATED TO PAY. Second... it's just gay! Sorry if I sound really whiney, I just needed to rant.

I really really really really want to see Melissa this weekend. I need to get away and I miss her and I want to ride.

Thank God, the baby went down fine. Not even a peep. Miraculous.

Tomorrow is Friday!!! Is it June yet????

Love always, Drea
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(no subject) [Feb. 25th, 2006:10:14 pm]
[+ |lovedloved]

I came back to Rochester about an hour ago... I had a ton of mail waiting for me. Bills, bills, junk, college junk, and one big brown envelope. A package from Stacy. I opened it and I smiled and laughed and smiled so long - and I knew this week of hard work was totally worth it. I am listening to the mixed CD... nobody has ever done anything like this for me. Just when it seems like everyone else is losing hope, Stacy shows me otherwise.

I am fighting back tears. Thank you so much Stacy. I love you!

In other news, I fell in love with JU. Again. I made some friends and I'm ready. I went shopping more and got a microwave and a toaster oven. I'm set to go.

Love Drea
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(no subject) [Feb. 21st, 2006:10:33 pm]
[+ |complacentcomplacent]

New journal!

Love, Drea

link[2 Ships in a Bottle:Set Sail]

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